The Preacher Who Violated

Saw the face of a man in the paper
the kind of face you wish you could forget
he was a preacher -- one who spoke with confidence

i was a kid who wanted to be the teachers pet
never forgot the preacher and what he did to me
never would deal with it but secrets just don't keep

never forgot the preacher who violated me
how can there be any good come from me?
he was a moral man who loved his wife and kids
he preached himself an example in all he said and did

i was old enough to know i had desire
i was young enough to believe an easy liar
never forgot the preacher and what he did to me
never would deal with it but secrets just don't keep
never forgot the preacher who violated me
how can there be any good come from me?

oh the feelings, will they ever go?
oh the memories will they ever show...
the pain i have had
the strength i now have
wholly and fully feeling
wholly and fully seeing
am i fully free?

"caught and hemmed in" is what the paper said
off to jail he now preaches from his cell
i forgive him what happened long ago

but forgiveness is not a word but a life that I chose

never forgot the preacher and what he did to me
never would deal with it but secrets just don't keep
never forgot the preacher who violated me,
won't forget, won't regret what he did to me

won't forget what he did to me.

Jallen Rix
album: The Sacred and the Queer
"What the Preacher Did to Me"